pain sucks... modern medicine sucks more...

really, it sucks... here's my meaningless complaint about it... see the italics below for the really ridiculous reason drugs are illegal and so easy to get...

mine is not to know just why, mine is just to feel this pain increasing daily to a point where i caved into my resistance to using drugs (mostly because the drugs i would choose are not what the medical profession offers and i believe the drugs the medical profession offers are usually not good for my body... like the hydrocodone with acetaminophen this woman (receptionist, perhaps nurse, but i doubt it) called into a pharmacy on the authorization of a physician's assistant who misread my xrays and didn't really examine my foot, which, as i've been reading, is par for the course for ankle injuries... i will call the doctor's office and ask to move my two-week follow-up appointment up a week on monday...

maybe taking four 325mg aspirins masked the pain (one reason i do not like )so well i did not take it seriously enough to insist on seeing a doctor right away cuz i was basically putting pressure on the heel in and out of the boot and gently manipulating the ankle and foot to reduce swelling, increase circulation, and expedite healing on my own since the pa said nothing was seriously wrong and i should start moving and walking on it when i could without pain...

yesterday around noon i stopped the aspirins mostly because nsaids raise blood pressure and because i started feeling the slight burn in my stomach that can be a sign of bleeding from too much aspirin... by yesterday evening the foot was more painful than it has been since the first twist/break and it's been getting progressively worse... so i called for meds and my roommate was able to pick up hyrocodone, only the most abused narcotic in this country, without me even being there... 30 tabs, $5, by phone, by proxy...

it could have been make-up on my foot... modern medicine, it's all about the money... of course they sold me a $150+ boot and would have sold me crutches if i didn't walk in on a borrowed pair... no real examination, just given me money and here is stuff and pills...

i took one three hours ago... minimal effect... script says every 4-6 hours... i will take another one in a few... the problem is it is combined with acetaminophen and contrary to modern pop-medical opinions and commercial sales pitches, that is not good for the liver or kidneys and i do not have the best liver or kidneys... so i am forced to take a medication i do not want or take no medication, at least until i see the doctor... hopefully the pain will not continue getting worse... as if i did not know, but next time, no getting triaged, i ask for a doctor and get a doctor... i was just hoping it was not serious and maybe it isn't but this pain is...

more pop complaints

of course there is plenty to complain about in the crap extra and tmz puts on tv (at least tmz mocks itself, i mean, extra seems to take the crap seriously, like the inner thoughts of celebrities is serious news, but then, serious news is even worse crap these days... ignrance is american...

and i really thought sandra bullock was a smarter girl, but then, she did fall in love with a divorsed redneck macho man who's first wife was a porn star (who is not suing him for custody of their kid, real news, right), so i probably should have had a clue (as if i took meeting her seriously, right and the arbitrary nonsense is epitomized by th glorification of kate, who exploited her kids while her husband was vilified for not being as photogenic or cooperative with the cameras and the public sodomizing (figuratively speaking) of the octomom who doesn't even have a name just because she was poor and involved in a fertility doctor's medical mistake...

ambulance chasing lawyers, lying money-milking doctors, exploitation news reporters, and everyone falls in line in pop america only proving that absolute power corrupts people from power money celebrity hungry women who opened their legs for married men who travel around scoring one night stands because the women make it so easy for the men with brains in their penises (and claim they were in love abd deserve sympathy, i mean, they are pitifully transparent, but they chose to spread their legs and they chose to seek the celebrity by prostituting their story for the pop news media) to the men who are so rich that rules and rights and wrongs are meaningless from sex to bombing children to selling drugs under the guise of improving health (so why is there a war on drugs again?)...

but can you put on a little more make-up, i mean, i think i can still see just a sliver of the real you showing through...

and is hollywood taking bets on how long before heather locklear's twelve year old daughter is knocked up?... stoking down the runway with little boys throwing nickles up on the stage... sell that sex girl it may be all you have to offer the world, after all... or are you gonna be a big rock star? (i'll take my nickle back if you do, cha)...

i do miss theatre people though... real working performers busting gut and sweating it out on stage hour after hour in rehearsals and night after night (and matinees), now that is talent i respect... yeah, i know better than everyone, which is why i have the tv on so i can glance up and find all this crap to mock and complain about when i have nothing else do do before craig ferguson comes on to mock all the crap for me...

chow bella...